i saw your face today!

January 18, 2011

I saw your beautiful face today. We received a referral call last night around 10:45pm. I was in bed. Daddy talked to Melissa from America World. Daddy got up early this morning to show me your pictures and referral information. I was hit with the thought of "Will this be her?" "Will I know if she is ours?" I knew as soon as I saw Jon Jon's pictures. I had such a peace when I saw his pictures. I wondered if I would have the same feeling with yours. I wondered what would happen if I just did not know. I looked at your pictures. I knew!!!! I knew it was you!!!! I prayed the same prayer I did with Jon Jon. All day, my prayer was "Not my will but YOURS be done." God gave me such a peace, AGAIN! He is so very faithful! I pray that I can teach you just how faithful HE is! Lord please help me be the mommy I need to be. Help me show my children YOUR love. Help me show them that YOU are a Father that loves beyond measure! Satan has tried to hit me so many times with lies and discouragement. I pray daily for strength and wisdom. He gives it. God placed in our hearts the desire to adopt you. It is a scary and overwhelming endeavor to adopt when I let Satan try to put fear in my mind. However, when I trust in the Lord and lean on Him, He shows me over and over that HIS will is for us to bring you into our family! I am so thankful God is giving us the honor of being your family! The wait during this time of compiling the paperwork has been long and at times hard. Oh how the wait will be so much longer and harder now!! I have now seen your face! I now want you in my arms RIGHT NOW! I want to hug you and kiss you and care for you. I want to show you what it means to know a mommy's love! (Not to mention the love of a daddy who has been wanting to have a little girl that can wrap him around her little finger and two brothers who have been praying for you EVERY SINGLE DAY and grandparents who will spoil you rotten and extended family and friends who will love you beyond words and oh the list just goes on and on!!!) For now, I will just pray without ceasing for your safety and growth while you are so very far from me physically. I will pray for strength to endure this time apart from you. I pray that God will prepare me to take care of you an meet your needs. I pray that God will prepare you for your life with us. I know the transition will be hard when we meet. But, I promise everything will be ok! God please give me the patience I need to make it through these next long months. Help me to savor this time with just my boys! Help me to prepare my heart to love my little girl. Watch over my little Asian beauty as she sleeps so very far from me. Send your angels to tuck her in and comfort her. Help her to know she is loved so very much from around the world!!

Praying for a sister!!!!!!

This blog will follow our journey of bringing little sister home!!! We began this journey mid 2010. Grace has been on our hearts much longer than that. We took a long time after bringing Jonathan home to seek God's will for another child. We are so excited He has called us to adopt again.